Weird realization: I’m good at having fun on accident. I’m good at looking like I’m having a good time. I’m not very good at having fun on purpose.
The thing is I have shit to do, you know? So planning to do fun things takes arrangements and that stresses me out. Life lately has been a lot and I’ve been a mess, but I’ve been doing a lot of fun things. I needed a reminder of that. Kinda makes the crazy feel doable and worth it. That’s a way I’ve never really looked at fun (which is sorta sad, but alas).
Anyway, I’m gonna go get ready for more fun stuff and then I’ll write about it someday maybe.